Well my big 3 year old started preschool this week!!!
Sunday night both girls had gone to bed and Chad and I were watching some TV and catching our breath from the day and while relaxing on the couch it hit me that I was going to have to take MY BABY and leave her with complete strangers for 3 of what would be the longest hours of my life. In the midst of watching whatever was on TV tears began to run down my face. I tried hiding it from my hubby and I did pretty good until it was time to go to bed and then he caught me and asked,"what in the world is wrong with you?". I answered him by saying "I don't want to take her". Now the tears really began to flow. So, morning comes and it's time to get dressed and go to school. Olivia was so excited and could not wait to get there! We walk up to the door and she pulls me back from the door and says "I don't want to go". I kneel down and begin to explain to her that it's going to be just fine, while choking back tears and questioning myself if it would be. We manage to get inside with no tears and her teacher takes her to play and we sneak out! I couldn't seem to make myself walk away and leave her there and then her teacher just happens to walk back out and she tells me that she's fine. So, Chad being the insensitive male that he is tells me we have to go and the dam breaks and the water works begin !!! For the next three hours my stomach was in knots! We arrived back at the school and much to my surprise she was not crying or upset at all she had had a great time. I was relieved.
This experience showed me that Olivia really doesn't belong to me she belongs to the Lord. I gave her to Him when she was still in my very large pregnant belly and asked Him to use her for His kingdom maybe this is the start of Him answering that very special little prayer. A scripture that rings loud in my mind through this little experience is Trust in the Lord with your whole heart and lean not on your on understanding!!! Through my experince I want to encouage those of you who might read this blog and have a big question in your life that you wonder if God really has your best interest at heart, let me assure you He does. Always keep in your mind that all things work together for the good of those that love the Lord!!
Here Are some more of our preschool pics....
